Crossdresser Body Issues
As a MTF crossdresser with no plans of transition, one could think that I am completely happy with my body and for the most part this is true. Where gender is concerned, I identify somewhere in between male and female but more toward the male side.
When conditions are ideal, I prefer to dress five to six times per month and the rest of the time I am very happy dressing in male mode. Even so, there are issues that I struggle with as far as my body is concerned.
To repeat, I have no plans on taking hormones or undergoing any feminization surgeries. I am able to shop most women's clothing section without encountering too much trouble in finding the right size for me, my face is somewhat rounded and my shoulders aren't super wide. In short, I am free from most body issues regardless of which gender I am presenting as.
My problems lie in the size of my feet, a US men's size 13. Now, don't get me wrong, I know that they could be even bigger. However, this translates to anywhere from a 13 to 15 in women's shoe sizes, where selection drops off steeply. I've yet to encounter a women's shoe about size 12 in a bricks and mortar store.
Hands and feet are fixed and there's nothing that can be done about them, so logic would dictate that I just up and accept them as they are. Well, this is a constant struggle, but fortunately I am slowly getting there. Thanks to online shopping, I am able to find ladies' footwear that fits my feet, and little by little the styles are getting better.
To all you MTF transgendered folk out there with hands and feet issues -- I feel your pain. By simply discussing your feelings and finding a proper outlet, it is possible to get closer to total self-acceptance. Once this is achieved, you will be much happier.
Jessica De Leon is the author of Jessica Who?